“If you know Christ, you’ll want others to know Him too.”

Our witness for Christ should reflect a grateful heart – a sincere desire to share salvation’s blessings with others. If we shrink from giving a word of testimony, let’s ask God to give us the desire to speak out for Him. Then we’ll witness because we want to. – Richard De Haan

07.01.2008, 22:58, No. 9

Lately, when I look in the mirror, I don’t like what i’m seeing. I see an overweight woman with bad hair. Yes, I’m 110 lbs. but I feel fat and I know I am overweight at 5’1 (the bulges are obvious now in my midsection). I can’t stick to a exercise routine for the longest time! (sigh) Since I’ve been hooked in blogging it doesn’t help. When you blog it requires sitting down for long period of time. I do stand up to get some drinks and snacks. hehe But really I want to look fit and fab asap! No, no, I am not thinking of liposuction, that hurts! plus its super expensive. But I know, I know, it will not happen if I don’t have determination and motivation. So I am gonna try to have a fixed exercise routine next week (wish me luck), say 2x a day and increase my progress. Exercising side to side with I should watch what I eat. I will avoid burgers, and lessen my rice intake. I hope I can do this for a month and see my progress… determination, determination… I need do it for my health also. Gotta stay healthy.

About trying to be fab, I am loving the tips I get from the TV show of Tim Gunn, “Tim Gunn’s Guide to Style.” The last episode I watched was hilarious because the woman is in her 40′s but she dressed like she’s in her 20′s. Basically, she wears jeans, tight fitting tees, too much accessories and lotsa make-up than a clown. Aside from being hilarious in her transformation, i can’t help but feel sad for her because she seems can’t let go of the image of herself as a 21 years old girl. So Tim came to the rescue. I can tell it was hard for Tim and his team to help the woman because she was not 100% committed for change. So to let her see the big picture, Tim made her meet a Life stylist. I’ve never heard of a Life stylist before so I said WTF? Anyway the Life Stylist basically helped her see the different stages of her life. The good and the bad. It ended up in a very bad tone because the woman didn’t want to give up her favorite day dress! that she loves to wore when when she was in her 20′s. I can be fixated in some things too but never a day dress!

To make the story short, the woman eventually opened up and accept the change. And voila! she looked sophisticated, professional and she now wears clothes for her age.

Hayyy.. time for me to try to wear clothes that will make me look fab that will make me look my age. But you know its soooo good to stay feeling like I’m in my 20′s. Tim will also have a hard time on me. lol

06.24.2008, 23:58, No. 8

It was Sunday, 3 am when I was awakened by strong winds with heavy rain hitting my roof and window. I didn’t realize that there was a storm because I was not able to hear the news that a big storm is about to come. The last time I heard from the weather forecaster of ABSCBN was typhoon ”Frank” (international codename: Fengshen) WILL NOT land in the Philippines. The unexpected tragic tragedy of the sunken ferry, MV Princess of the Stars left us all in shock. Maybe the “weather people” can explain why “Frank” visited the archipelago when he’s supposed to disappear in the air. But I guess, when tragedy strikes, sometimes we cannot truly understand why. But this is a lesson learned, never let a ferry sail even if its only storm signal no. 1. The lives of the people are far more important than money.

Before:

After:

Latest Stat from Inquirer.net as of today:

Rescued – 48

Death toll – 70

Missing – 650-700+

For now what we can do is…

Let us all take a moment to pray for the victims and their families of the tragic sinking of the MV Princess of the Stars.

From the comforting words of our Lord Jesus:

“Come to me, all of you who work hard and who carry heavy burdens, and I will refresh you.” (Matthew 11:28 )

06.09.2008, 22:50, No. 7 – Diary of a mouse

The past days I was having a “down syndrome”, that’s how i describe myself whenever I am feeling down. I was down because there are some things in my life that I want to happen now, asap… but its not happening yet. Its so frustrating when you want things to happen but you cannot do anything to make it happen… hence you feel helpless. I let the feeling go… had few tears here and there, but after I let out, I am back in my normal self again. One thing I learned to keep a relationship is never ever let my pride gets in between me and my loved one. I say sorry and mean it. I don’t think saying sorry means I admitted I was the one whose wrong, its being humble and  letting the person knows that he is more important than my sulking. And wow, I always feel good whenever I say sorry and let myself become vulnerable to mickey mouse because it hurts me more to know that mickey mouse is hurting. I want mickey mouse to be the happiest man on earth.

Today I feel happy, I was able to take a good nap, have my afternoon coffee and toasted bread and do some blogging. And oh! There is a new Korean drama-comedy on TV so I watched it and laughed how I used to be like “Dalja”, the main character of the drama-comedy. You know 30-something and still single.

Another reason that I am happy is being able to take my parents out yesterday. When I was young, my parents used to take me to watch the Circus or take me to McDonalds. But now, I’m the one who takes them out. I treasure every moment with them until I join mickey mouse. We should treasure our parents no matter how much they can be pain in the ass sometimes. Hey we’ve been a pain in their asses too! Care for your parents while you still can because you can never take back time.

But to top my being happy today is because my mickey mouse is celebrating his birthday! Happy Birthday Mickey Mouse!!! Muah! I wish you more birthdays to come. I am thankful that we’ve met and you own half of my heart. I will always be here for you no matter what, thru thick or thin. Love you!

So life is beautiful despite the constant struggles in life. There’s a saying “happiness is not wanting what you have, but wanting what you have.”

You can read the Diaries of the mouse from Nos. 1-5 here.

06.07.2008, 22:15, Diary of  a mouse No. 6

I realized that you can never change a person no matter if you’re their greatest love. Its something not easy to accept that you can’t change the person you love even if what they’re doing already hurts you. You can never know what life will throw at you. Sometimes you just want to give up and walk away. But that’s a coward way so I don’t want to go there. But despite life is a continuous struggle, amazing things are happening to me. I realized that I am stronger than I think I am. I can be down but I can stand up again. I am able to accept the person I love, I am able to understand and be more patient. If the hurt is too much and I don’t think I can’t take it anymore, I tell my loved one that it hurts like hell already so he better stop. I think that’s why LOVE is “invented”, love has the magic of making things better. Like tonight, I’m a bit unsure of so many things. But I know things will get better. And like what Leona Lewis said in her song, “I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you…” I will definitely follow my heart because mickey mouse and I is worth fighting for. Listening to Leona’s song “Bleeding Love” makes me feel better.

I recently started blogging with the help of mickey mouse and I really enjoyed it!!! I have my first blog called Feng Shui and Everything Fancy, that I’ve been playing for the past 2 months. Its not so much but its a good start. I wish I can just blog, eat, sleep and be with mickey mouse. But alas, I have to work and earn a living so I try to blog at least every other day. I noticed in the categories of my blog – Diary of a mouse is having its own life so I decided to move it here and give it a new home. I am more happy that it has a new home so that it doesn’t feel awkward and alienated in my other blog. Now I feel more free to type on whatever comes in to mind. Blogging makes me feel good and became my past time, so I will just keep on blogging whatever this blog leads me.